I am very shaken by the events in Japan, too, i've been seeing one natural disaster after the other since I moved to Spain (2005), & of course I was always sorry for the victims, I usually say a prayer for the peace of souls, and maybe make a donation. But that was "more disasters on the news" whereas this time it was something really deep, something private.

This morning waking dream. I am reading The Goddesses of Each Woman, about the archetypes of 7 Greek goddesses, & I got to Demeter - the one who rules growth, fertility, nutrition, in short “Nature-goddess”, "mother-goddess". While I was shifting in and out of the dream I saw her image - a beautiful, rather curvaceous woman, shining with health. I told her that I wanted a hug - we are supposed to be strong, winners,badasses - but heck, some love & comfort are needed! She put me in her lap (she was so much bigger), & first I felt comfortable & “taken care of”, but I started musing on Japan's quake & tsunami, then saw the Hiroshima & Nagasaki explosions, then Michael Jackson's "Earth Song" drifted in... when I looked back on the goddess I was horrified! She suddenly was greyish, emaciated, with sores all over the place & little hair. I was shocked, saying: “Oh my, dear, what happened to you, what made you so sick?” She was only crying. Then it dawned on me that it was radiation sickness, & I was shocked even more, it was me who was hugging her this time (softly in order not to cause her even more pain), & I tried to get some reply, like “Dear, love, I feel horrible that you feel like this, but tell me what to do!” She looked and said: “Me, hurt” & kept crying. I was about to pull my hair out, what the hell we are doing to the planet! It’s really bad, the human beings are messing with atomic energy & so many things that they cannot control, we are like monkeys in a starship pressing all buttons we can reach - and look what’s happening. I was feeling very frustrated & impotent, & kept insisting on how I can help, or what to do.

Then the scene shifted into Pandorrean environment, a forest with a big tree close to a river, and I saw her... a bit better. Better skin tone, less sores, more hair... it looked as if the healing process started. And she kept looking and looking at me as if trying to convey some message that I wasn’t getting, but at least it looked like she felt less pain.

Anyway, the only conclusion I got from that waking dream was to talk to Avatar people – since the dream ended on Pandora, with the Nature goddess feeling a little bit better... I decided that I should share it here on ToS. Of course it’s "just a dream", but me waking up crying because the Earth is suffering from the radiation/contamination sickness... that really moved something in me. I don’t know, just sharing, imho we are in the same boat – for good or for bad...