Hey buddy,
It's all good man, I give credit where credit is deserved! PAD and PAE are both wonderful experiences, or transformations as some may think about it, so don't let it get you too far down. Just keep reminding yourself of why you feel that way... Because you've been shown a new way of thinking which I would argue is better than the 'old' system. Like exercise, for example: You won't get to the next level without a little discomfort
I like the thought of being old and looking back on all this. I hope both you and this site stick around so we can laugh about it together!