I think it's natural for us to be curious about the universe. Your right about the chaotic order, it's weird and seems illogical but that's how it seems to work. Carl Sagan is good, read about the pale blue dot. It puts humanity into perspective.
Really interesting choice for your forum name. It actually sounds like an actual name rather than merging two words together. I also love to learn about the universe, I may not be a genius but I enjoy learning as much as I can. I like watching Brian Cox do his series on BBC.
Oh, it's lyrics from a song i've been listening to. I've been having that effect quite recently... I'll have a moment where everything seems so far away and I go to another place, a place that seems both infinitely small and yet so vast at the same time.