lol i hope i dont get too out of topic with this but this is for my lover stan:

well, i know you dont belive in the word sick... but then what would you call dreams saddd stomach story, i'm pretty sure she has some sort of "sick". T_T *cries thinking about it*:'(:'(

I have no idea what an honest opinion would be, because in my current mental state, I don't think anything I say or do is truly what I want.

But I'm also afraid of overusing Avatar, despite having seen it only three times in theater. Also I rarely listen to the soundtrack anymore due to the same fear.

I don't have that fear... my fear is more that if I stop, I'll lose it and the only thing that gives me meaning any more along with it, so kind of the opposite.

Well I finally got to see my doctor today about the psychiatric assessment followup and I got perscribed "Cipralex". It apparently helps relieve worry, panic, fear and anxiety. So I'm really optimistic about this and really hope I can fully enjoy Avatar once again :)

So I watched Avatar last night, at which point I was on my medication for the 6th day. I was able to enjoy the movie almost as if it was the first time watching it. I was able to concentrate on the movie and my mind didn't wander off constantly. Also I didn't think ahead in the movie, which I had done before. So it appears that the medication is working :)

That's good to hear! *hugs* I'm glad it's working for you. :D Nothing beats that first-time-watching-Avatar feeling! <-- sounds like a commercial.

Lol I know. I can vaguely remember the feelings I experienced during the first time watching Avatar and I miss them :(