Rebirth
 

I've buzzcut my hair. It feels like a brush on the head.

I've changed the black of my clothes this time, I don't want to look like an insomniac zombie anymore.

On these days I've been thinking over what priorities I should have in life. I have been avoiding that question since I began this search for truth. And I think, perhaps, that I've got something to give this world before I leave it.

There's so much to do here. So much to be fixed. Too much.

I've re-opened a project I had forgotten somewhere in my computer: project Humanitas. Humanitas consists in three sub-projects: project Veritas, focused on the search of truth; project Lux, mainly devoted to knowledge and experience; and project Valens, thought to improve physical health and strength.

Soul, mind and body.

Humanitas will be the project of my life -if I can keep it alive throughout the years.

And, I think I'll go walking more often from now on. I need some more fresh air. I'm going to cut some of the time I spend at the computer, no longer than 3 hours a day. Perhaps I'll join a hiking group, or just go to my nearest gym.

I'll be writing and drawing more, too; I'm thinking on making a book called "Thirteen August days", its first chapters are already done -unfortunately, in Spanish.

And though I don't like it, I'll have to study as well. I'm going to focus more on that.

I think this is a new beginning for me.

I have hope, and fear is slowly fading away.

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Thanks to the ToS community for their support, and care on my issues. You've been the guiding light on this changing phase of mine.

Thanks people. Thanks.

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*feels like crying*

hmm... I hope it works for you :)

ZenitYerkes, good for you, I'm so happy for you, sometimes its just little changes, baby steps, that can start to make a difference. I'm learning this too! :)

ohh is that the story you sent me a couple of weeks ago :P ? I wish you the best of lucks Zenit ;) See you around :D

I can't say I am disappointed with this forum; every thread I post has always a reply.

Thanks for your support people, it's something that will keep me going :D

I'm glad that we have been able to help you Zenit. Don't be a stranger around here though and I would like to see your project. It sounds interesting. Good luck and know that we are here always to help. PM me if you need to talk :).

We definitely need you around here still... I understand if you don't have so much time, but we love your insights :)

I completely agree with HNM :). I love your posts Zenit. They are very thoughtful and make for good conversations :).

I'll keep visiting ToS people, you're my second family and you know that.

However, these final exams are too exhausting. I'm so tired of this. I need to rest.

I'm being less active and will keep like that until the end of June. I'll keep posting new threads, though; but less than before. Hate to say this, but studies have priority here.