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Longing
Aching
Desperate
For connection
To living
Breathing
Growing
Warmth
Life Force

Imagining
Visualizing
Fingers
Tendrils
Reaching
Stretching
Threading
Deep
Into the earth

Sensing
Sensation
Touching
Tingling
Connecting
Feeling
Texture
Dirt
Roots
Worms
Earth

Organic
Orgasmic
Exhaltation

Experiencing
Now
The Real
Nostrils
Flaring
Smelling
Pungent
Rich
Dark

Senses reel
in Sensory
Ecstasy
Paradise
Alive!

2011

Can you hear
the green woods
calling
their spirits
whispering
bioluminencent
in this night
Beckoning

Longing
To run away
hide
disappear
within
simplified
raw
primal
Never to return,
This is the
Blessing.

Aching
Agonizing
if it continues
remaining
just out of reach
imaginative
vision
dream
not able
to be real
Unobtainable,
mortal frame
heart spirits cage
cannot endure,
sometimes seeking
to be free of it
released,
This is the
Curse!

2011

Sometimes
P.A.D.
is just Hell
Lost
Lonely
When in it
Wishing
That
I'd
never
had
a reason
to have it
at all!

2011

:'(

I hope things go a bit better soon... remember that while people may be far away in distance, they are always with you as a person :)

Thx HNM .. but right now, even though that thought, has sustained me for a year, that you all are 'here', and 'here' is as close as I can choose to make it, feel it; right now 'here' feels as far away as Pandora! :(


Sometimes
I just want
to go to sleep,
The sleep,
The last sleep,
the final sleep,
hoping
imagining
that perhaps
its the only way
to be released of it!

2011

Even Mika .. struggles with depression ... on occassion!

And then
in the moment
A moment
of profound
connectedness
all that the spirit
seeks
longs

That moment
where
it all dissolves
and one
longs
to dissolve
into it
with it
into the Oneness
into the Wholeness

Yet
pulls out
back
away
afraid
unexpectedly
from that
which
it so
ardently seeks.

Because it
can't last
won't last
forever!

2011

sitting
sun bending
warm in the moment
awake, alive
seeing no thoughts
go on by


ma tsmuk, truly it gets better...and it gets worse...but it changes!

Thx! :)

And in between all this, I am practicing ardently, the Zen breath, and it is helping and getting better!

:)

Great. That's really helpful for me, too. Only I do prana yama breathing.


I breathe in

and fall

Wells singing down

into quiet

Mika, I really, really can sympathise with you, especially on the second poem. That sums up my sentiment entirely... Oel ngati kameie, truly.

But as you yourself are finding, and as our friend Alyara Arati points out, it changes. :)

In dank and dark,
He festered the depths.
Now throws windows asprawl
Feels sol and secret in unison,
And remembers...

What it is to be.

:)