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[Mika]

Sometime
If I remember correctly
Shortly after
Disneyland
And the first stirrings
Of having
A sense of who I am
Or could have been
Imagineering
And so much of my life
That never was
But dreamed
Came screaming
To the surface
And I was struggling
To embrace
And make peace
With it
As it appeared to me
That time had passed
But the could have been
Might have been
Should have been
Measured some
Small comfort
Of knowing
And accepting

But perhaps
I have it wrong
Tis possible
Maybe
It transpired
Even before
I went
It’s hard to say
It’s hard to remember
No matter
The timing
The circumstance
That triggered
Was making the connection
Tsaheylu wih Eywa
Like others
The concept appealed
To my dramatic vision
A child at play
Playfully engaging
Fascinated curiosity
The novelty of it
I don’t know if she’s real
(I think I said
In the moment)
But I wonder what
It would be like
Uncertain now
As to my prayer
A simple turning
Asking to be heard
And from there
All else transpires
And everything unravels

Not that day
Perhaps not even
The next
But certainly
Within a fraction
Of time
The first occurrence
Voices Spirits
Asking Demanding
What is
Your hearts desire
And my contrition
At being
Unable to answer
To no avail
But in the end
Admittedly to ask
For that
And that alone
After all this time
All these years
All those tests
And travails
Stolen hopes
And faded aspirations
Searching
Beseeching
To remember
Or at least recollect
Finally
With certainty
Find the answer
Of my heart
And soul
And pull it out
Of the shadows
And murky depths
Where it lay
Hidden dormant
Lost in a void
Even to myself.

Fair warning
To any aspiring seeker
Recall well my stories,
Before you open
Pandora's Box;
First she had too
Drive me insane
To accompish it
And I
Just about
didn't
Survive it.

Yet here we are
Nigh on almost
A year later
Eyes wide open
Little uncertainty
Left
Even if
I don’t understand it
Spirit
Eywa
Has answered!

And so I returned
for the second time
the first since then
and reconnected
to offer
simple gratitude
my Thank you
For this Blessing!

[Mika]

I just picked up a new book "The Healing Power of Trees" by Sharlyn Hidalgo, and one of the most powerful parts of the book that called to me was the Willow Tree Symbolism.

In my poem above i talk about connecting with Eywa, and really from both seeing Avatar, and that moment, i mention in my poem, i have been on an incredible 'healing journey' in my real life, that i have shared in leaps across this forum and my posts.

When i 'hear' the teachings of the Willow, translated Eywa, it speaks exactly to what the healing and the journey of the last two years was all about, and even to all that we aspire to have achieved here on this forum.

So i share with you, the Teaching of Eywa, in her Gaian (Earth form), The Sacred Willow Tree!



EDITED - moved to spirituality sub forum

[Aquaplant]

I'm beginning to understand why I've never understood poems before, and that is because I could never understand emotions before. And even though I've probably only just begun to scratch the surface, I see so much beauty, but also so much sadness, that I'm not sure if I'm ready for that. I will have to tread carefully, because I think I could literally drown myself in emotions, and that doesn't mean in the emotionally healthy way.