Dreams vs Reality

[Theorist]

Recently I've been dreaming a lot. And I mean a lot. Like so much that reality and dreams are blurring together. I'll go through a whole day, and the only two parts I realize are that I get into my bed at night, and out of in the morning.

Maybe dreaming is the right world, but perhaps "living inside my mind." It seems as if recently everything has been inside my mind. Everything I do in school is thinking orientated. Even my runs, and hard workouts. I block out the pain, and hardly realize anything is happening.

I've started doing reality checks. Where I stop, look around, and feel the ground/desk/whatever around me. I make sure I'm awake. I try to feel the physical world. Feel tangibility.

I really don't know exactly how to explain this, but it's like I hardly feel a part of the tangible world. It's kinda like I'm just my mind, and I'm stuck in this vehicle (my body) and I'm going through life.

I mean, it's not like I'm dreaming fantasy things, I'm doing Calculus, reading books, learning a new language, and all kinds of demanding thought processing activities. But, I very rarely feel "Alive." I used to feel so connected to the ground below me, but now I feel Like I'm thinking about too many things, and I forgot to feel the solid surface below me.

I really don't know exactly how to explain this, it's just kinda like all I do is think (thinking isn't bad), and I don't touch enough tangible things to remind myself what is actually reality, and what is going on in my mind.

I don't know, it's just strange how "detached" from the physical world I've felt lately. Now, don't get me wrong. I believe that you can "Slip inside the eye of your mind, don't you know you might find a better place to play." But, I think I'm ignoring the cool wind stinging my face. The rush of adrenaline from when I almost get injured. It's not that I avoid pain completely in my life (I mean my races hurt a damn-lot), it's more that I've stopped thinking about it, and I don't pain attention to it.