A loss that never happened.

[Fkeu'itan]

...And I never had you to grace my bed,
To fill my arms in deepest abandon,
Nor to simply stare into my eyes,
And for I to lose myself in yours.

The thought in itself makes me pain,
It makes me ache and writhe from head to toe,
Left wondering if I will ever feel your gentle touch,
Or your caring and love from one to another.

I cannot pinpoint why this is so,
Does the error lie solely in my very being, in my person?
Is the fault with mentality, or spirit, or sensibility?
Why do I consider myself worthy of all fronts, so...

Yet, thus... the lesser would seek to stray away from me.
To seek in others, in other things I do not posess.
To claim that which not in spades, nor en-masse,
Can be seen in me.

Although is this the truth?
Ask or be asked - the question in the reality,
As one would hope on inquisition, they would find me to be,
Somewhat more than first seemed.

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Apologies for the title, it is supposed to be "A loss that never happened." but in a drunken mistake, I acidentally hit the submission button.

[Human No More]

Sometimes we just have to take the chance, as if there were no consequences, if we want to know.

PS. Title changed

[Mother of the Forest]

What a sad piece. I felt very connected to it. Thank you for sharing it.

[Moco Loco]

Wow, this feels familiar. Nice to hear it never happened to you