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05-07-2012, 10:55 PM
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I Admit
After maybe 1 year and a couple months , I dusted off my copy of avatar and watched it , yet again it left me with a feeling and a thought shot through my head.
What has changed ? Has the movie, which I valued and still value alot more than just a movie changed me , did it have any aftereffect on me ? I guess Im not the only one asking that question to myself , but I can answer it , although I don't like the answer . The answer is I still smoke too much , I drink , I gamble , most of the time Im busy , keeping my head busy if you can say so , but if I think again , it's my mind keeping ME busy . Im still very indecicive , I still can't muster the courage to do something about it , my willpower is drained slowly but surely . I told myself , you should value the token of life more , or start to first of all , for a certain amount of time , even before avatar I thought I was somewhat "enlightened" , but then again , after all the time that has passed , you just realize you are just a sandcorn in the vast nothingness of time and space , a cog in a machine that won't stop , won't let me breath through , let me feel alive for just a short amount of time . What have I done , is probably one of the most important questions one can ask him/herself , what have you done , not only to yourself , but also to others . After such a long time I came back here , the question is why , or maybe there is no question at all ,all I know is that the curse of doubt ,not knowing about the things that I told myself matter the most has never had such a strong grasp like nowadays. In the end , I admit , I haven't changed , avatar hasn't made me a better person ,I failed miserably like many before me and many others ,failed to take inniciative, maybe avatar is just a short flash , like a dying star somewhere out in the universe , reminding us for a short time that we manage to pay attention , that there is more to discover and experience than we are made to believe .
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05-08-2012, 01:33 AM
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I don't see how any of that matters; it's inspiration. You don't need to do every single thing differently.
You haven't changed externally, maybe, but there's a mark somewhere, there's something in your mind that is different - it's just a way of thinking. Sometimes I feel the same way, that nothing really changed, but then I look around and I can realise that isn't true. It takes effort, it doesn't come by itself, but it can happen. Welcome back, I hope you find it helpful 
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05-08-2012, 08:06 AM
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Only thing holding you back is you, and you can't rely on Avatar or any other story with an underlying message. You need to do this yourself, and with the help of your friends and family. "Willpower is a myth. It's emotionally powered, and emotions are fickle. Wanting to do something — no matter how badly you want it — won't make it happen. You need a plan and you need to change something in your lifestyle."
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05-08-2012, 09:51 AM
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I barely post at all these days but this made me want to respond as I've felt similar feelings.
I don't know every detail of how you thought personally that you could be a better person through Avatar, but I wouldn't quite say that you haven't changed at all. Maybe what happened was the movie simply shined a light on things that you wanted to change and let you know what you could do; maybe the change was never meant to be automatic or completely self-sustaining. Or maybe it's possible that there are other factors keeping you from changing before the process can be complete. In my own quest to be a better person since that day in 2009 (wow, seems ages ago...), I can say I've made many mistakes and there have been times when it seemed the movie was indeed just a short flash. But I think after a lot of self-examination, I've been able to take some steps forward. (However, there is still a lot I can do.) For the first few months, it seemed that Avatar's effect was going to keep on lasting, but I realized that I had to find ways to keep it alive myself with ways of inspiration that were not necessarily part of the movie. I don't know if that helps but the bottom line is this: don't be too hard on yourself. It just takes some effort, and the change is possible.
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05-08-2012, 08:17 PM
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Im not at all blaming a movie to not have changed me , sorry if I made it look like that and Im more than aware that Im the one who has to take action to change things .
It just waked me up , it shook me , I finally saw values that were worth fighting for and to carry out in the world , but in the end i got numbed again , it's like a slowing venom , it poisons your mind , it simply numbs you . I couldn't find an exact word for that feeling yet though . Afterall Im thankful for new perspectives the movie showed me , yet it's almost a sin at some point to show something so pure and good and shortly after you realize it's only an illusion , though a very fascinating and inspiring one , I doubt you will ever be able to find the things avatar and the na'vi represent on this planet , not anymore at least .
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05-08-2012, 09:28 PM
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I remember reading your posts way back when I first joined Avatar-Forums, you stood out in my mind because of the things you said back then. To see you here now saying you haven't changed after all, I find to be desperately sad.
We all have to fight that 'numbness', you say you saw things worth fighting for so why let go. Don't give up on what Avatar gave you man, find discipline and force yourself to change. There is plenty that Avatar and the Na'vi represent on this planet, community in the form of ToS comes to mind immediately. You say you still smoke and drink, if giving these things up is what you want then you can. You are in control, giving up is simply not extending your hand and giving in for that momentary pleasure. I don't want to sound harsh or anything, I want to help you. There were so many inspiring posts by you and others when I first joined AF. Surely if you didn't want to go back to the things you spoke of back then you would not have made this thread
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05-08-2012, 10:05 PM
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05-08-2012, 10:20 PM
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05-09-2012, 09:15 AM
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and there's no reason you have to move on either. When the sequel comes out I bet we'll see loads of people return and hopefully some of them will have not gone back to their pre-Avatar ways.
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