A cry for help once again...

[Fkeu'itan]

My dear friends,

I really, really need some support and I hope you're willing to give it again. I have just lost a very dear friend I made on the forums. Someone I shared deep, deep thoughts and connections with on, for what was quite a long time, almost a daily basis and now that i've lost them, I in turn feel lost myself. Like there is no one left I can speak to. I feel like i'm so alone, isolated. It hurts the soul so much. And it all feels like my fault.

I want to thrash, but I don't have the energy.
I want to scream and shout but I don't have a voice.
I want to run away but there's nowhere to run to.

It's all too painful.

I'm so sorry for shovelling all this off on to all of you... truly, truly sorry.

(And if the aforementioned person is reading this, i'm sorry, I don't want to make it difficult, I absolutely don't. )