The end of the most pathetic rant series ever - ZY

[ZenitYerkes]

Dear, beloved Sisters and Brothers from ToS:

Nothing to say, but the usual rant I've been posting up lately. Nothing to say, nothing to feel. Just complaints, shouts, rage, fear.

Avatar has been drowned by my old life. Now it's just a nice movie, and I feel so hurt for it. They've won: the routine, the teachers, the progress, the cars, the blocks, the walls, the alarm clock, the money, the greed, the malice. Everything I hated has taken over inside me. And every time I try to look back to glance at the old light these three hours gave me; the shadows just push me out and remind me it's all fantasy. A painful reminder.

I wish I could simply pick a taxi, go far, far away and forget all this nonsense, all this pain, this fear.

Now I'm just comfortably numb. And I hate it so much. I just can shout from my place, but even if I could speak with the greatest truth, I've got no freedom to get out of here.

And everything's dying.

Even myself.

I wish a single thing on the surface of this planet filled this hole. I wish something had a f*cking real sense. I wish I could say "I am free". I wish... I wish I hadn't had to wish anything at all.

Just words... It's all I can do now. Rant, shout, cry, fear.

I wish, I could keep the dream alive.

This is my last post about all this stupid nonsensical rant; something I just want to get rid of no matter how.

But still lingers on.

PS: Please, somebody show me the way. I am a cold person; and only have cried for this twice. This is the second time.