So desperately sad... in need of support

[Eltu]

Thank you all for your replies.

As I said in my original post... it's not Earth, nature itself that is saddening... I know Earth is incredibly beautiful, and I do take long walks out in nature when I have the chance...

It's rather the community and life situation we have today... Sure, I can be outside, experience the beauty of Earth... but once I get back, I get reminded of the harsh reality. As I said in my OP, the sense of community... where everyone around you, every day, are persons you can share your life with... it's not present in modern society.

And I mean... what happens i the future? Will I get a repetitive job, do the same things every day..? What am I striving to accomplish right now?

I mean...I don't want to live like this... it isn't my home - it feels like I don't belong here...