I Almost Snapped Today At Work

[allycat]

its true ^^ getting really angry may lead to getting fired and may not send the right message BUT!! its ok to write things angrilly into a journal or getting really angry when you are alone to let the rage out.. or else.. it will be kept bottled up and that will only make it worse.. trust me, ive been there, done that

[josie20]

Hey Stanley, I know exactly how you feel. I'm not appreciated at all at my job. My advice is, first of all, never feel bad about what you post here. Also, anger is can be a good thing at times, as long as it doesn't lead to violence. Anger is one of the best motivators, it leads to action. NEVER try to repress your feelings. Find some way to release your feelings. If you're angry you can drop down and do several push-ups(I understand if you don't want to do this at work). Some times at work(I deal with a-lot of cardboard boxes full of meat) I'll go into the back room and punch a box full of meat(I work at a store and the customers can be unbelievable ignorant). Again, NEVER try to repress your feelings. Find some way to let them out that doesn't harm anyone.

Also, it can help if you let people know that your not going to be pushed around. Now, this has to be done VERY carefully, and the way this is done will depend on the type of person. For example, at my old job, there was this guy that thought he was tougher than everyone else. He would always touch people in inappropriate ways. Once he did this to me. I finally had enough. I had one free hand at the time, so with my free hand I put him in a headlock. He then tried to wrestle me to the ground. I dropped the thing I was holding with my other hand and we wrestled for a little while. Long story short, he technically one the "fight" as he wrestled me to the ground before I could "take him down." But after that incident, he never messed with me again. He knew I was serious, that I wouldn't put up with his crap.

Now, obviously this isn't appropriate for you situation. But maybe, if she treats you this bad all the time, you should have some stern, respectful words with her. Obviously, if you're not supposed to be on the internet, you can't really say anything about that. But just find some way to let her know that you won't be treated like crap. I've had to do this at my current job once or twice, and it payed off. But you need to be very, VERY, careful how you do it. It would be better to do that then keep it bottled up until you explode.

I wasn't planning on writing this much, but I hoped it helped, at least a little. Good luck, friend.

[Human No More]

I really don't know what to say here. I'm so sorry to hear it's being hard for you at the moment... I don't have a job at the moment, and I'm really scared I'll have to end up doing something like that, being stuck in something depressing, underappreciated and overworked. Unfortunately, with the world the way it is, everyone has to work, in order to survive... it's all so pointless

Just remember, even if you have to make yourself do it, it is necessary unfortunately - and you always have us, your friends... Most people don't have anyone like us, they can't talk about how they feel like this. I'm sure many people feel the same but just can't release it any way, so they hide it

[madman]

Originally Posted by Stanley_9875

Thanks a lot again you guys ... I just wish I didn't post this now haha it's just last night I was still a little upset, so when I posted this I felt better but now I feel I should've left some stuff out of the post like the pen, trust me I dont know what I was thinking, it was like two scratches and was like, "ouch, well that was stupid" I'm just afraid you all will think of me unstable or one who cuts himself to feel better and I'm not that person, it's just I feel like i'm. A different person at work. Like when people ask me how my day was I say, "at work or the rest of my day?" like looking back on it it's like sure maybe I should've gotten in trouble for using the interent, but it's the fact she's never grateful. Oh well I can't go back now I'm just sorry to you all I put this on you and maybe burdened your heart in someway possibly thinking I'm unstable or something. If I wasn't on my iTouch I would quote each of you and thank yu but this thanks goes out to all of you for putting up with me and my pathetic life lol I just can't wait till I get a job doing what I love... Working on cars. If I do something I love I don't let anything affect me, but if I'm at someplace I don't like with some people I don't want to talk to doing something I don't like... I just need to post encouraging messages around me desk. Again i'm sorry and thanks fir everything trust me I'm better now some poeople have it worse off than me so I better accept it and make the best of it

you are not alone in the way you release your anger Stanley. When I get frustrated and stressed to my wits end, I've been known to punch very hard objects. Normally hurt my fist pretty good. I never go balistic on people through words or fights. Never been a fighter.

Hurting ourselves isn't the answer though Stanley. If you figure out what is. Let me know will ya?

Oel ngati kameie ma tsmukan

[Wanderling]

Originally Posted by Stanley_9875

Sorry wow that felt good to get out. I'm a lot better now it's just in the heat of the moment my mind runs wild

Hey Stanley, this says it all in my mind. Sometimes writing stuff out and sharing it helps all that frustration just melt away, and it sounds like it did for you. Don't worry about sharing things you're feeling in the heat of the moment, never be sorry to let your feelings out. You have a great way of expressing yourself (coming from someone who does in fact keep way too much in...it's not healthy, don't you ever do it!)

*hugs*

Hopefully next week will be a better week.

[Petrucho]

I snapped at school a month ago ... a dude was talking about how stupid is visiting forests and nature places, so ... i exploded, i told him all and every single truth about him and his ****ty life ... to be honest i almost punched him on the face i would've done that but then i thought, if i do this ... i may get kik'd of the school or be punished. After that i felt a big relief. I may know how did you feel Stanley ... and you need something to "distribute" your anger, but it's difficult if you have somebody behind you who never says thanks.
I See You again

[Apollo]

Originally Posted by Stanley_9875

I know a lot of you are from other parts of the world and not sure if the same phrases are thrown around like my title I almost snapped... snapped means lost control, just had enough, I can't take it anymore, just letting things build up until their breaking point, ect. ect. I've talked to a few people around here asking if they feel appreciative at their jobs, and most answers were, "no I don't, I only remember getting one thanks" and lots of responses like those. Well today I'm working as usual... I work at a trucking company scanning paperwork, and the scanning process is slow... Click, click, click, enter, enter pro number and click save, wait... click okay, wait... click "X" for that sheet and repeat process... and the waiting is pretty long. So I bring in my Avatar journal (AKA just my everyday journal since my life pretty much revolves around everything Avatar related lol), read fanfics I printed out, downsize my internet screen so I can surf here while having the loading bar at the bottom of the screen visible so when its done I can continue on with the mind numbing routine... its only a couple more months till I graduate college.

Anyways today I was writing in my journal, and then I got a tap on the shoulder (at this point its a big stack of papers and the bigger the stack the longer the waiting, so I knew this would take a while) I turned around to see it was one of the women I don't normally talk to but know and she looked at me and said, "Nows not a time for homework, you need to be caught up on scanning and continue your work" and then she left before I could say anything (side note: also my boss is out on vacation). I grit my teeth and mumbled underneath my breath but put the notebook away and just sat there staring at the screen waiting. after a couple more scans I got frustrated of not doing crap, so I logged on to ToS and began PMing someone, and I would copy and paste what they said onto wordpad so I'm not technically on the internet lol (I know I'm playing with fire) but again small screen so I can see the loading bar. I'm sitting there reading and then I get another tap on the shoulder and its the same lady again. "I'm serious, get OFF the internet... this is your final warning or this is going on your record... get back to scanning" then she turned and walked away. Heres what I wrote in my notebook after she left...



Looking back on it, having a couple hours to think on it I hate to see myself like that and I'm sure it pains you too to see me like that... I hate myself when I'm like that, but its not the whole fact of her telling me to log of whatever and scan, its the whole fact she's unappreciative. I've never heard a thank you from her, I've only gotten like one or two thanks for the year and a half I've been working there. All I get is "you need to work harder, your not working fast enough, I need these done now..." I'm never good enough there for anyone.

Sorry wow that felt good to get out. I'm a lot better now it's just in the heat of the moment my mind runs wild

Wow bro, she really got to you, and you have every reason to act the way you did. It's only natural. Seeing yourself like that is... enough to make you wonder about your situation. Perhaps when that loading bar is going on your scans, you can write a vent note and throw out the letter. I would imagine that if you try to think about her *****y attitude and think positive thoughts, your day won't be ruined by her (idk about you, but she would ruin my entire day acting that way, those people get under my skin).

If you need anything; talk, vent, discuss ideas, in need of reflection, etc. you can always talk to me tsmukan. You got my condolences and you have my best wishes for your future. Know you'll pull through any situation as long you keep your head up high. We all have strength, and I know you have it plenty of it too.

Thanks for sharing this with us mate.

[rapunzel77]

I just got done reading all of the posts on this thread and I want to say that I've been there Stanley. It seems you have one of the most annoying of supervisors: the sort that will catch you always in the most in opportune moments while you are trying to do something while the document loads. I have had supervisors like that before. I understand the frustration and the feelings of under appreciation.

As for as hurting yourself with a pen. I wouldn't be concerned about telling us all of this. Its kinda similar to biting one's lip when they are very angry and there are a few "choice" words you want to say but it would be worse for you to say them so you bite your lip in order to put your emotions in check and at the same time releasing some of the tension.

You only have 2 months to go so do the best you can . I know it is difficult. We all want to get positive feedback on our work. I hardly get any where I work. Once in a while I do. It is helpful but I know it is not normally a thing that is done in most businesses.