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Originally Posted by Fkeu'itan

Yeah I believe they are all mental 'barriers' shall we say and it's really quite difficult to conqure them. I can't do that myself.

That's the thing when you leave it 'till last minute... finishing something or learning something then becomes a necessity so I find I tend to work with a lot more focus or absorb things better (If i'm revising for an exam).

Like I said though, this often leads deadlines not being met etc.

My 'theory' on getting rid of this kind of problem is to make schedules, and not dread anything that I know alot about of. For instance, I would dread reading economics homework. I won't all that much if I just don't think about the homework, but know that by 5pm, I got to read this book so I won't have the problem of forgetting something in school. That something being invaluable information on a test.

I like to force Rational Ignorance on myself (intentionally not knowing things). Although my curiosity for the things that I know nothing about can conquer my daily goals, throwing everything amok. Sometimes, this doesn't work. Take last night for instance. I had a nightmare that I was slitting someone's throat out of a large rage outburst. I don't see anything since I'm behind her, she simple bows her head. I wake up and wonder why I dream of such things, and I know this isn't the territory I want to cross, but this dream torments me in a little way that it distracts me from my daily activities.

The theory is starting to work out itself, but it has had a side effect. I'm scheduling more things that didn't need planning to begin with (ex. drawing). Even though more than half the time I never finish extra things on my lists, I get the essentials.