Shatter Complex.

[Fkeu'itan]

Donning the heavy veil,
Of supposed hapiness,
Entering back
Into this world again.

I pray that this show,
This farce,
This endless act...
Is well played.

Convincing enough,
So that many,
Should not inquire
About the internal state.

Not wanting,
To live this fallacy,
Yet it is a priority.
Lest I face fear, backlash.

The most painful
Is to have someone -
Someone you need -
Not understand.

Should the attempt,
Of further intrusion
Be made by such people,
I fear the concequences.

Falling out,
And smashing.
Into a hundred thousand
Fragments of dispair.

A shatter complex.

So building a wall,
Showing unreal composure,
Is the only way
To stop it.

Returning once again.
Reliving the lie
Thought left behind,
A long time ago.

It's all too easy...
To replace the tired armour,
Over a conflicted soul.
In order to protect.

The load remains unbearable.

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Living a life of deciept and misleading is not easy for the leader, but so comfortably acceptable for those being led. The visual performance we put on is unbelievably easy to do, yet the battle that rages beneith is silently destructive.

People here are the only people who I can truly be honest with. Everyone else offers little more than misinterpretation, fear and - sometimes - blunt laughter.