Lonliness.

[Stanley_9875]

Oel ngati kameie ma tsmukan, I completely understand you. I've never had a girlfriend either, I'm 19, and the one I almost had, lets just say we both liked each other but she went to college in another state and ended up getting a boyfriend there. That made me feel wonderful [/sarcasm]. And like you said, I just want someone to say that they love me, and truly mean it. I fear that when I get a relationship she'll just be there because she feels if she leaves me she'll feel bad, but she doens't feel the same way about me that I do her. It's hard to look at todays world and have the hope that you'll find true love, all it is at my college is "friends with benifits" they don't truly love them, they just want to say they've had sex with such a number of the hottest girls. And it's also hard to approach a girl and have them know that you're not one of those other guys. How do you go about that? It's a hard subject, especially for someone who hasn't had a girlfriend, sometimes I fear I think too much about it, what love truly is and such, and thats my problem about not having someone special in my life. I dream of having someone embracing me because of who I am, for her to truly say to me that she loves me and my soul has the connection that she truly means it. I'm alone with you as well ma tsmukan, but don't give up. You and I and everyone else here who hasn't been in a relationship will get through these lonely times. But like I just said it is hard. I walk down the street at a mall (its an outdoor mall with tons of stores) filled with tons of people, and I hardly see girls about my age, and when I do see them, they're walking hand in hand with another guy. And the girls that are walking with their girlfriends or alone, I look at their eyes, see if they have any interest, but sometimes I look and they have zero signs. It's moments like those that I go and sit down someplace and think. Is it something I'm doing wrong? Is it the way I look? Act? Dress? Is it the who I am? Looking at couples like those at the malls or like my cousin and her boyfriend, I see how happy they both are to be with each other, and I wish that I had someone I could make that happy, and someone who could make me that happy. Someday I will, but I just would like to know when. I feel like I've waited so long, but I know there are other guys who have waited longer, and I feel sorry for them as well. Hang in there ma tmukan, and to all those who are in the same situation in life as we are as well. We're always here to support each other, and I hope this gave you some more support.