Why Am I Feeling Like This?

[txen]

I and likely many if not most here have had the same experience. The weird thing is I have conflicting emotions. My empathy compels me to feel the pain. For me this is unavoidable. In fact a desire to help led me to these forums. I have known PAD like depression for a large part of my life. I saw the news stories about PAD and I had to seek these places out. I also see a spark of hope at the same time. The only reason for PAD is a awakening to the idea of what life and the world could be. How we are supposed to relate to each other. At times growth comes with pain and this is an example of it.

I can't say how that man who was so affected that he sat in his chair and began crying when asked to leave, but I would guess that like most he has moved on. Most people do. I just fear that he thinks that he is alone in his pain. As we well know he is not. There have been a few others where I felt tremendous darkness and I do have to say I have feared for more than one users safety. Usually these individuals had preexisting issues and the Avatar experience just pushed them over the edge. To answer an old question I am my brothers keeper. I will do what I can, but none of us can reach or save everyone. I have learned this lesson at considerable personal pain.

I find if I can help someone get through that it helps fill that hole.

[madman]

It is kind of disheartening when you realize how many people that are out there that have or are currently suffering from PAD and have not found a community like this or AF. It really makes me feel thankful that I have found these places.

[Grif]

The world is filled with endless possibilities, countless people, and infinite probability, so your not going to know it all. As much as you want to know how everyone is, where they've moved to, you just can't. But cherish what you do know.

[madman]

I think we are all looking for a way to almost repay earth for what we have done to her. I hope that through my own efforts that I can help turn PAD into something good for me, earth, and humanity.

[Stanley_9875]

Originally Posted by ZenitYerkes

I try to become a better person and have a generous heart (following this reference). I try not to reply to the insults or deny favors people ask me; I try to control myself and put a smile to help and serve. I am also trying not to pull myself back when certain situations I fear appear, get over that to become as fearless as Jake.

Also, I will take part in philosophy and politics to clean up with my greatest efforts all the sh*t that goes around them. And if have some time left, I'll try to get into a charity or a volunteer program this summer.

And I'm in love with this, the Revinuesa Valley in Soria; I think I'll live there for a while.

That's in a few words my Path to Heaven.

BTW 300th post, I am glad to have used it replying to your question.

Thats great! Yea I try everyday to try and change things just around where I live, at work I try to smile and ask the other person how they're doing, I wait for a response when I ask it, and I try to keep a positive attitude, but some days its hard (Like today) but that was really inspiring.

Originally Posted by Human No More

I know far too well... I feel the same way.
As for how I am, well, I suppose it could be worse, as I have all you.

Your post was really touching, I really can't put into words just how proud and happy I am to have you friends, all of you... I'd be completely lost without all of you. The emptiness, the feeling of what is missing and my loneliness would be too much without all my friends here...

I'm starting to get all emotional again

Really, you're more than friends, you're almost family to me... I have never had anyone who really understood me, who I could talk to about how I truly feel... you give me that, and I'm so happy to know you all.

Indeed it could be worse, if there wasn't a place like this without people like you, I don't know where I'd be right now. you're a family to me to ma tsmukan, I'm happy to know you as well

Originally Posted by madman

Stanley, you should never feel that you need to apologize for sharing whats on your mind. You are right, without Avatar you would not have experienced all of this. But you aren't the only one. I have had my own emotional experiences because of Avatar, and I would hope that when I do end up sharing them, that the people who I shared them with would be called my friends. You have friends here and on AF!!

I would GLADLY go back to my first experience of Avatar. Screw all the bad feelings that came with it. It was truly a profound experience.

Oel ngati kameie tsmukan

Oel ngati kameie ma tsmukan, I would go back to that moment at any given time in a heartbeat

Originally Posted by Loverofnature

Stan... 3 words... Oel Ngati Kameie

i feel sorry for those how arent on any forum, i feel feel sad for the man who cried in the theater, thinking that i probably would do the same... i am on the verge of tears, and it takes alot to make me cry, i feel with all of you... and i feel with you Stan. this movie and you on this forum is the best think to ever happen in my life ;'( i to think about my experience, my puny experince, on a 15 inch screen, with ****ty audio and visuals but it still got trough, big time, and it pains me to say that i have not seen it once on the silver screen... it makes me sad... i hope fox will rerelease it here in denmark. I have a huge case of PAD and PAE, it doesnt seem to go away, but i feel like it is a blessing, and a blessing only. i have gained willpower and Self-esteem, when i do things that i think is right i can immediatly feel it inside of me i have just said it and i will say it agagin, you guys are the best thing that has happened to me Ever, strangly i cannot get my mind of the man you where talking about, the crying man. i real do feel sorry for him, i wish i knew his identity and go give him a hug

This means so so so much to me... thank you so much for those incredibly loving words, and I too feel like PAD and PAE is a blessing, without it I feel blind, but really there were only moments in time that I was without either. Thanks for sharing your experience and how it affects you that is truly awesome... and I too wish I could know that person/those people, to comfort them and let them know its alright and they're not alone

Originally Posted by Grif

The world is filled with endless possibilities, countless people, and infinite probability, so your not going to know it all. As much as you want to know how everyone is, where they've moved to, you just can't. But cherish what you do know.

QFT, thank you for that... and even though I may not know everyone, I am truly truly blessed to know my family here

Originally Posted by txen

I and likely many if not most here have had the same experience. The weird thing is I have conflicting emotions. My empathy compels me to feel the pain. For me this is unavoidable. In fact a desire to help led me to these forums. I have known PAD like depression for a large part of my life. I saw the news stories about PAD and I had to seek these places out. I also see a spark of hope at the same time. The only reason for PAD is a awakening to the idea of what life and the world could be. How we are supposed to relate to each other. At times growth comes with pain and this is an example of it.

I can't say how that man who was so affected that he sat in his chair and began crying when asked to leave, but I would guess that like most he has moved on. Most people do. I just fear that he thinks that he is alone in his pain. As we well know he is not. There have been a few others where I felt tremendous darkness and I do have to say I have feared for more than one users safety. Usually these individuals had preexisting issues and the Avatar experience just pushed them over the edge. To answer an old question I am my brothers keeper. I will do what I can, but none of us can reach or save everyone. I have learned this lesson at considerable personal pain.

I find if I can help someone get through that it helps fill that hole.

QFT indeed... I don't know if he's moved on or not... and even hearing people contemplate suicide is a scary thought.

Originally Posted by Txum_kali'weya

this is true.
i am sure if my parents knew what was happening with me, i would probably also be put into therapy. Avatar has opened my eyes to see the world, and i was born again.

my bitrhday is 21/23/09, and i am now 4 months old.

Haha thats an awesome way to look at it

Originally Posted by Earthlover18

"One life ends, another begins". When I first saw Avatar and Jake opened his eyes at the end, I was also born again. 1/21/10

I truly love that quote...

I was born again 12/18/09

[Petrucho]

Awesome ... "I was born again" <------- 2/10/09

Staaaaaaannnnnnleeeeyyyy !

I see you im so glad i found this place ... and im sure we all are. We have been all united by this movie, but also thanks to it, we've known how to help each other in so many different ways, soo many friends, everything. To express how are we feeling, our problems, our opinions, Neytiri and Jake pics ( ) , banning the user above us , the 2 word story ... i think "Everything" is not enough

I see you all !

[Stanley_9875]

Originally Posted by Tzmukan Wokan

Awesome ... "I was born again" <------- 2/10/09

Staaaaaaannnnnnleeeeyyyy !

I see you im so glad i found this place ... and im sure we all are. We have been all united by this movie, but also thanks to it, we've known how to help each other in so many different ways, soo many friends, everything. To express how are we feeling, our problems, our opinions, Neytiri and Jake pics ( ) , banning the user above us , the 2 word story ... i think "Everything" is not enough

I see you all !

tttttttttttzzzzzzzzzzzmmmmmmmmmmmmmuuuuuuuuuuuuuuk kkkkkkkkkkkkaaaaaaaaannnnnnnnnn wwwwwwwooooookkkkkkkkkkaaaaaaaaannnnnnnnnn!!!

man sounds like you guys and girls have a lot of fun in the games section, I should give them a try...

[Txum_kali'weya]

wow...
i havn't been on the forum games section in... a long time...

[guyguy]

Originally Posted by Stanley_9875

Sorry about this random post on my feelings

i think that everyone can agree that there is nothing random there
i admire your emphaty for others!
sorry if i always been a man of few words but you talk the thruth ma tsmukan