Lamest qq rant ever.

[omaticaya]

Oh Sam, a big, big Omaticaya hug from me.

It's so sad what you are telling and I'm so impressed over your courage to write it all down here!!! Thanks for sharing your feelings and having confidence in us. I know this feeling of waiting that you described very well, it's terrible.

And yes, you are a very, very nice person. Again a big Omaticaya hug.

So if the world is cruel to you and you ever have the wish to dig yourself in, just dig a long and deep tunnel and you'll arrive just here and will have another shoulder to cry on.

[Stanley_9875]

Autumshire, Sammy, my heart truly truly goes out to you *infinite BIG Na'vi hugs* I am so so so sorry about the situation you're in, and I got to say you're handling it very well... I'm sorry this world has to be so cruel, you don't deserve to be treated like that... one bit. If you ever need someone to talk to you know who to PM I wish I lived closer...

So do you think he'll ever apologize or do you think its over for good?

[rapunzel77]

Autumnshire, I'll give you a very big ((hug)) too . It is fine to get it off your chest. You know what you have to do. It won't be easy. It will be painful but you will be happier. You deserve so much better. I have had a bad relationship before too. I realized that the only reason why I was with him because I pitied him and I didn't want to be alone. I thought I was losing the only chance I had at love. Thankfully, I did break up with him. My brother later told me that I deserved someone better than that jerk who I know used me.

Its ok to cry. You have invested a lot of time in him and he just throws it away . It is terrible that people, both men and women treat each other in this manner. We are all here to listen and share. Its ok to cry to us . We'll understand.

If you ever get the chance to come here, to the U.S., come here to Florida and we will hang out .

[Human No More]

*hugs*

If you want my advice, I think you really shouldn't put up with all that. Unfortunately there are just some people in the world who thrive on bringing others down and making them feel bad when they have done nothing...

Move on, you'll feel better about it.

*hugs again*

[Toshowlove]

Oh man Sammy... I've TOTALLY been there.

As everyone has already stated, don't be sorry! I know i love hearing about people's personal struggles and i love to offer my advice! Makes me feel good

I've had "that guy" in my life, in ways i still kind of do. I too relied on him to be there for me, regardless of our 'emotional situation'. Its so easy to review the "i'll always be there for you" and the "You know you'll always have a place in my heart, i'll never forget you". I know i find i hold on to what's good about the person and RELENTLESSLY give benefit of the doubt (Even in my current emotional situations i do that... i need to work on being stronger in that sense.)

Ugh, and i know the mind questions "why am i wasting my time? he said he'd be there for me... what the hell happened? How'd we get here?" They pester you and make you feel like you're going crazy. I'm glad you seem to have found your piece, for me it was a lesson i had to learn on repeat for about a hear... sometimes at the end of the day people just dont give a rats ass.

I too have a HUGE heart, and i know how big yours is! Don't ever think you're being selfish for demanding a little respect. He seems to have an ego to him, let him be cut down to size! What's good about us big hearted people (Even though its a nuisance alot of the time) is that we can FEEL and honestly SEE other people. It makes me smile to know that i can care about so many people so much.

I've run off on a tangent! Just know that as crappy as some of the days to come might be, there will be lots of laughter about it in the future. There will come a day where you think of him and say..."what the HELL was i thinking!?" and you'll be able to keep the memory as something more than a regret.

We love you too Autumnshire! Whenever you need an ear, we're here!

[Wanderling]

Big, big hugs, ma tsmuke! You have such terrific courage to share your chain of thoughts with us here, and I wish you the strength to let this guy go. I so completely and utterly know how hard that is to do, even when the person keeps hurting you over and over again. Have strength Sammy. You are not alone, and you are so very valuable to all of us. *more hugs*

[zongtseng]

As you can see, there was nothing lame about this post You are loved here, and while some may discount sentiments like this expressed over the internet, I think it is more than that. This is a family, and a family supports each other through bad times. If only communities and bonds like this could be forged on a larger scale in real life.

[Autumnshire]

Thank you so much for your words, everyone... want to thank you all individually. I'm having such trouble from people I used to know... three people I never wanted to hear from today popped up again - I don't know what's going on with life atm, it all seems to happen at once!! :p but anyway. Being able to get on here and talk to you guys makes it all ok. I do feel like I whine, but I guess sometimes you just need to - offload all those negative feelings. Thanks for being there. If I wasn't at work I'd probably cry from appreciation, what a wuss

[Stanley_9875]

Originally Posted by Autumnshire

Thank you so much for your words, everyone... want to thank you all individually. I'm having such trouble from people I used to know... three people I never wanted to hear from today popped up again - I don't know what's going on with life atm, it all seems to happen at once!! :p but anyway. Being able to get on here and talk to you guys makes it all ok. I do feel like I whine, but I guess sometimes you just need to - offload all those negative feelings. Thanks for being there. If I wasn't at work I'd probably cry from appreciation, what a wuss

I wouldn't call it whining, like I said, just expressing what's on your mind that needs to get out

[txen]

Originally Posted by Autumnshire

Thank you so much for your words, everyone... want to thank you all individually. I'm having such trouble from people I used to know... three people I never wanted to hear from today popped up again - I don't know what's going on with life atm, it all seems to happen at once!! :p but anyway. Being able to get on here and talk to you guys makes it all ok. I do feel like I whine, but I guess sometimes you just need to - offload all those negative feelings. Thanks for being there. If I wasn't at work I'd probably cry from appreciation, what a wuss

I'll have to agree that it's not whining. Besides when you are one of the people you are accepted and supported.

People from your past that you never wanted to hear from? That's why I don't think I'll ever be on facebook or myspace. I would have a hundred of those.

[Autumnshire]

Originally Posted by txen

I'll have to agree that it's not whining. Besides when you are one of the people you are accepted and supported.

People from your past that you never wanted to hear from? That's why I don't think I'll ever be on facebook or myspace. I would have a hundred of those.

Facebook is HORRIBLE. I seldom use it now. I can't stand it. For that reason exactly. Just people I'd much rather not have in my mind right now. Sometimes it doesn't bother me, but sometimes it does. This is certainly one of those times.

[guyguy]

i wish i was able to express my feelings like you to be honest
i think i had trouble breathing at the end of the post
you should try to find a man that take care of you, not just want to be there for his own purpose, you deserve it

[Autumnshire]

Thanks guyguy Sorry for the breathing stress.

Thank you all so much. I'm feeling better today. I still get a bit angsty thinking about him and this other chick together after they went around so much behind my back (not cheating on me, but making their own little "Hate Sam" club... not a nice feeling when I found out). Ugh, people are so immature sometimes. I really respect the ones that can talk about their true feelings face-to-face in a mature and honest manner. To me, hiding feelings from someone important is horrible, even if you think it's for the best. I guess some people might rather not know, but for me probably because of different things that have happened throughout my life, honesty is one of the most important things.

[Spock]

Originally Posted by Autumnshire

Thanks guyguy Sorry for the breathing stress.

Thank you all so much. I'm feeling better today. I still get a bit angsty thinking about him and this other chick together after they went around so much behind my back (not cheating on me, but making their own little "Hate Sam" club... not a nice feeling when I found out). Ugh, people are so immature sometimes. I really respect the ones that can talk about their true feelings face-to-face in a mature and honest manner. To me, hiding feelings from someone important is horrible, even if you think it's for the best. I guess some people might rather not know, but for me probably because of different things that have happened throughout my life, honesty is one of the most important things.

I've had to deal with those kind of people before..... It's not fun.

[Stanley_9875]

Amen about honesty! I would rather be told "I don't like you like you like me" than go through a relationship thinking she loves me

and I'm so glad your day was better *hugs*