A cry for help once again...

[Fkeu'itan]

My dear friends,

I really, really need some support and I hope you're willing to give it again. I have just lost a very dear friend I made on the forums. Someone I shared deep, deep thoughts and connections with on, for what was quite a long time, almost a daily basis and now that i've lost them, I in turn feel lost myself. Like there is no one left I can speak to. I feel like i'm so alone, isolated. It hurts the soul so much. And it all feels like my fault.

I want to thrash, but I don't have the energy.
I want to scream and shout but I don't have a voice.
I want to run away but there's nowhere to run to.

It's all too painful.

I'm so sorry for shovelling all this off on to all of you... truly, truly sorry.

(And if the aforementioned person is reading this, i'm sorry, I don't want to make it difficult, I absolutely don't. )

[rapunzel77]

Fkeu'itan, ((HUGS)). I'm sorry that this has happened. Its completely understandable to feel numb and drained of energy. I don't know what happened between the two of you and I don't know if it is possible for the two of you to reconcile (try to if you can) but I do know how painful it must be to lose someone you thought you could trust, a true friend. It hurts, I know. Its painful and you want to scream (that could be cathartic).

If you need to cry, that is fine. Let it all out, that is what you need to do.

Is there a way that you can reconcile? Right now, with the emotions so rare, it is probably very difficult if not impossible to do but perhaps, in time? Maybe?

In the meantime, if you want to talk about this some more, feel free to PM me, ok?

[Fkeu'itan]

I just have to get away for a while, i'm going to have a walk and return in a couple of hours.

And thank you very much for the offer rapunzel...

[ZenitYerkes]

I completely know how you feel now. Really.

If you feel the need of crying, just do it and take everything out. If you want to tell anybody, you know you can PM me anytime. If you want to reconcile, let the situation stay for a few days and then contact him when everything has calmed down.

I lost a friend long ago, and we eventually managed to be together again after some time; I really understand what you're passing through.

[Stanley_9875]

Oh man ma tsmukan I am truly sorry... this is terrible news you didn't get their e-mail address or facebook or anything?
And you have no reason to be sorry, something bad just happened to you and you need some comfort and that's what I'm here for and I'm sure numerous (if not all) of us are here for as well

[Human No More]

I'm so sorry to hear this... I hope you can improve things between yourselves again.
You always share your thoughts, and I really understand so much you say...
If you want to talk to me, for advice, someone to talk to or even just someone to listen, PM me here or on IRC. I'm always there for my friends when they need me.

[Devourment]

That's terrible D:

All I can offer is a song, this always cheers me up when I'm feeling bummed.

The lyrics aren't usually relevant to why I'm feeling unhappy, but it's so cheerful I have trouble staying that way.

Best of luck.

[Txantsulsam Fyawintxu]

Fkeu'itan, I don't know what exactly happened between you and your beloved friend but I feel for you... I, even we, understand you... Take the time to get out, express, then reflect upon yourself and what happened, grieve, do whatever it takes to get it out of your system and hopefully you'll feel better as well as gain certain insights as of how to help solve the problem...

In either case, since everybody's contributing in their own unique way, I decided to give you a little something too.



Feel better ma tsmukan!

[Fkeu'itan]

Thanks for all the warm responses everyone, it has helped a lot.

And Stanley, no I didn't get any other contact details. That's what makes it so hard. it's just like one minute they're there and you think they always will be and the next thing, one of the only people you know who Sees you is gone forever...

It's just so... difficult.

[rapunzel77]

Originally Posted by Fkeu'itan

Thanks for all the warm responses everyone, it has helped a lot.

And Stanley, no I didn't get any other contact details. That's what makes it so hard. it's just like one minute they're there and you think they always will be and the next thing, one of the only people you know who Sees you is gone forever...

It's just so... difficult.

I'm glad that we have been able to help. Is there still a chance that the person is on TOS or the AF? Or have they gone for good? Maybe they will come back and you can try to contact them. I hope you will be able to reconcile and work things out. I know how painful it is . If you ever need to talk, you can always PM me .

[Stanley_9875]

Originally Posted by Fkeu'itan

Thanks for all the warm responses everyone, it has helped a lot.

And Stanley, no I didn't get any other contact details. That's what makes it so hard. it's just like one minute they're there and you think they always will be and the next thing, one of the only people you know who Sees you is gone forever...

It's just so... difficult.

Yea that's why I feel so sad somedays, because if I get a friend request I'll look at all my friends and realize I don't see half of them anymore... it is very sad

[Ratavasidna]

Originally Posted by Stanley_9875

Yea that's why I feel so sad somedays, because if I get a friend request I'll look at all my friends and realize I don't see half of them anymore... it is very sad

m0.0m

[Apollo]

The thickest shadow has the greatest sunshine.

If you feel incredibly terrible and don't think you can find a way out of it. You just need to look at Devourment's signature. One of my favorite gifs of her. Neytiri's smile can turn any bad day into a good one.

When this kind of thing happens. I go to the park and mediate on my situation, even if it is 12 degrees outside (not if bugs are everywhere, ex. a swarm of mosquitos that nearly block out the sun are after you). I stay in my bedroom, looking at the ceiling for a good half hour first, and if I can't think, I go outside. Relax, and see what is around you both mentally and physically. You've carried on some how, and you will again.

My deepest regrets, and condolence. You don't ever need to worry about who to turn to, you got us still .

[Pa'li Makto]

Fkeu'itan: I have been through a similar experiance, with a childhood friend...
I won't say much, but I consider you a good friend and I offer you my undivided attention and support.
PM me anytime, I'll advise you as much I can of how you can help yourself and what you shouldn't do..
I know one thing: hold on tight to everyone around you..without them you could slip into something bad..
Just let me know okay..I hope you're holding on well
*crosses fingers*

[Fkeu'itan]

I'm really glad there are so many people offering to listen, thank you all so much. Starting to feel a lot better now thanks to all of you wonderful people.