Hopefully Tonight I Can Get Some Sleep

[Stanley_9875]

As a few of you may know I haven't gotten good sleep this weekend... I'd lay awake in bed till about 3:30am ish and drift off and wake up again, then finally wake up pretty early in the morning and stay awake. I don't know exactly what's keeping me up; sadness, loneliness (not from you guys and girls, like love relationship type), confusion, guilt... not really sure, I just have this feeling in my gut... It's almost 11pm here and I don't feel in the least bit tired... this has been a confusing weekend... just a bunch of time to think to myself, confused on my emotions... plus also my friends were over sometimes so it was different... like this morning when I took a shower I just sat there in the shower and let the water wash on top of me for like 15 minutes. and tonight I just sat outside on our spa house roof and stared up at the sky for like 10-15 minutes. I don't want this to sound really depressing or anything, I'm just confused on why I'm feeling like this... it could be because of my sleeplessness... but what's causing that? hopefully I get the sleep I need tonight, but like I said I don't feel tired.

Oh well we'll see what happens... sorry I know some of you don't care if I release my emotions, but I still feel guilty :/

also thank you toshowlove, immo, and mune for talking with me tonight

[Taw Makto]

Gad, Stanley....I don't want to go to sleep! I've been on vacation for the last nine days...tomorrow morning I gots to go back to work! Don't get me wrong, I have a job that I rather like and all that, but I just found this place and frankly I could stay online for a week getting to know the group. And, not to belabor my revolutions about ol' Sol, but there comes a time when it's pretty easy to get to sleep - especially after about five pages of a good sci-fi novel....but waking up at like 3:00am and *not* getting back to sleep....frequently....really wears a dude down.

Now, putting on my psych hat...let me share this idea from a distance. You say you're 19...or will be soon. A guy at that age has more chemistry going on in his system than he usually realizes. I think it's gently referred to as rampaging hormones. It hits everyone differently...and not all guys become ravenous sex machines as a result. I can assure you, I was just as emotional when I was in college as you are. Maybe moreso. All I can suggest is to not let it worry you too much. It's normal, it will pass. If you don't read before bed, I recommend it. There's nothing like reading some good fiction to put your mind in a frame for sleep. Just don't read anything too good! That'll really kill your chances of nodding off quickly! Self introspection is something that will keep you up all night, every night. Been there, done that, got the t-shirt. And there's lots of things throughout one's life that they will regret or feel guilt about. No need to get too much practice too soon, ma tsmukan. Pleasant dreams, and all that crap.

[txen]

All I can say is been there done that. Sometimes I can hardly sleep. My mind refuses to let go and I lay there thinking. Usually it's a temporary thing. If you can do your best to articulate exactly what it is. Yes I know, easier said than done. I really helps to be able to tell someone else what it is so you can get the support you need.

It should pass. If it persists consider taking other steps.

[Helicoradian]

As a few of you may know I haven't gotten good sleep this weekend... I'd lay awake in bed till about 3:30am ish and drift off and wake up again, then finally wake up pretty early in the morning and stay awake.

Happens to me to

I don't want this to sound really depressing or anything, I'm just confused on why I'm feeling like this... it could be because of my sleeplessness... but what's causing that? hopefully I get the sleep I need tonight, but like I said I don't feel tired.

You obviously have a bunch of things going through your mind right now. But you don't quite know what to make of these things, am I kinda close? The same thing happens to me and I'm just as confused as you are

Oh well we'll see what happens... sorry I know some of you don't care if I release my emotions, but I still feel guilty :/

You shouldn't feel guilty, tsmukan

[madman]

Man I feel bad for saying that I don't ever have trouble sleeping. In fact sometimes i want to stay up and I cannot. My body simply shuts down. I really do hope that you can get more sleep ma tsmukan.

[zongtseng]

I had a period of about a month in early 2009 where I just did not sleep. At all. I went 5 days without sleep twice in that month, and never slept two straight nights. I have no idea what caused it, but thank god, it finally went away.

It's odd you mention this now though. I laid in bed last night (well, actually during the day, if you know my work schedule) but I never fell asleep. Maybe there was some kind of disturbance in the Avatar universe I did see Avatar in IMAX last night, so I'm sure that had something to do with it.

[Txum_kali'weya]

Where in the earth universe is AVATAR still playing?!?! And in IMAX too?!?!
Lucky...

Back on topic: i have a hard time stayng up past 1-ish...

[Apollo]

Hope this helps you sleep

Hehe, you need a laugh before you plop on a pillow

[Autumnshire]

Originally Posted by Stanley_9875

As a few of you may know I haven't gotten good sleep this weekend... I'd lay awake in bed till about 3:30am ish and drift off and wake up again, then finally wake up pretty early in the morning and stay awake. I don't know exactly what's keeping me up; sadness, loneliness (not from you guys and girls, like love relationship type), confusion, guilt... not really sure, I just have this feeling in my gut... It's almost 11pm here and I don't feel in the least bit tired... this has been a confusing weekend... just a bunch of time to think to myself, confused on my emotions... plus also my friends were over sometimes so it was different... like this morning when I took a shower I just sat there in the shower and let the water wash on top of me for like 15 minutes. and tonight I just sat outside on our spa house roof and stared up at the sky for like 10-15 minutes. I don't want this to sound really depressing or anything, I'm just confused on why I'm feeling like this... it could be because of my sleeplessness... but what's causing that? hopefully I get the sleep I need tonight, but like I said I don't feel tired.

Oh well we'll see what happens... sorry I know some of you don't care if I release my emotions, but I still feel guilty :/

also thank you toshowlove, immo, and mune for talking with me tonight

I'm sorry to hear this, tsmukan. It's so weird. I know what you mean though. I have so many times like this. I just go outside, late at night, and just walk. I don't even know where I'm walking to. Lately it's been getting cold out so that sends me home more quickly, but it's weird. Sometimes I go to the skate park near me and just sit there, and look up at the stars, vaguely aware of the traffic passing and people probably looking at me going wtf. Even in this house, when I am near people (Mum, sis, her bf - those two probably make it worse, all their lovey-dovey antics... good for them but they rub it in a bit too much sometimes ), I just feel so far away from EVERYONE. It's like.. I go into this zone, where I'm waiting to connect with something or someone far away... It must exist, but I can't access it yet; I haven't found it yet.
I dunno, ma tsmukan. Talking about it is good, of course. But what to physically do... I dunno. Maybe sleep deprivation has something to do with it for you? I hope you find a way to sleep. Do you listen to music while you go to bed? Sometimes if I'm having major difficulty, I just give up on the whole sleep thing, and I put in my headphones instead. I listen to music on my 'adventure me' playlist on my iPod - tracks (mainly instrumentals, like James Horner's work) that just take my mind away from my physical space. It calms me down, daydreaming about other things and other places. Adventures I could be having in another world. I dunno, might sound weird and mental. But it's how I spend a lot of my time. Just dreaming, and thinking about other places. Letting my imagination inspire me.
Sigh...

I really wanna visit ya

[Fkeu'itan]

Aww Stanley, big hugs man, I really hope you can get past this problem ma tsmukan. I had a stretch recently where I was exactly the same. Finally going to sleep at around 4, 5AM, sleeping for about 3 hours, waking up and repeating the whole process. Like you, my emotions at the time were very confused as well, they still are in a way, so I can understand completely where you stand on that ground too.

The things that help me in that situation is, like Autumn said, some relaxing music and a meditation session. Just getting away from this world and going to a completely different place (usually Pandora ) can help to no end. Sometimes if it's really bad, i'll go for a walk out into the woods nearby, just lay on a bench or on the grass if it's dry, look up at the stars and just think everything over. No distractions, just thoughts.

I really hope you can get some good sleep soon ma tsmukan.

[Stanley_9875]

Irayo ma aytsmukan so aytsmuke. Its just comforting to see people care and know I'm not alone in this whole thing... Well laid awake in bed again last night for a while... Don't know til what time but thankfully my alarm went off before I woke up but still it was early in the morning (I consider 6:30am early) but again thanks... And I also had a dream last night because I don't think I've told you but I haven't been having any dreams lately from what I can remember and that made me sad because I love dreams

[Human No More]

I know *exactly* what you mean... the last 3 or 4 days, I haven't really gone to sleep before 4 (friday not really counting since I went out then and didn't get home until about 5), but even on the other nights then, I was making myself sleep and didn't really need to.

Last week, I spent 2 days without sleeping at all twice in a week, without even really getting that tired.

I really don' know why, I've always had some insomnia, but it's just been a lot worse recently. It's been worse ever since Avatar, but it's been the most recently.

[Dreaming Of Pandora]

You can call me nocturnal without sleeping during the day!

Im always awake at 3 or 4am either watching a movie on my mini DVD player in my cozy bed or am posting either here or AF.

So basically I know what you're going through, even had my fair share of shower day-dreaming!

This is probably a pointless post if you're looking for help because I rarely get 6 hours of sleep during weekdays and less on weekends. I can only say I know what you're going through.

[Stanley_9875]

Originally Posted by Autumnshire

I'm sorry to hear this, tsmukan. It's so weird. I know what you mean though. I have so many times like this. I just go outside, late at night, and just walk. I don't even know where I'm walking to. Lately it's been getting cold out so that sends me home more quickly, but it's weird. Sometimes I go to the skate park near me and just sit there, and look up at the stars, vaguely aware of the traffic passing and people probably looking at me going wtf. Even in this house, when I am near people (Mum, sis, her bf - those two probably make it worse, all their lovey-dovey antics... good for them but they rub it in a bit too much sometimes ), I just feel so far away from EVERYONE. It's like.. I go into this zone, where I'm waiting to connect with something or someone far away... It must exist, but I can't access it yet; I haven't found it yet.
I dunno, ma tsmukan. Talking about it is good, of course. But what to physically do... I dunno. Maybe sleep deprivation has something to do with it for you? I hope you find a way to sleep. Do you listen to music while you go to bed? Sometimes if I'm having major difficulty, I just give up on the whole sleep thing, and I put in my headphones instead. I listen to music on my 'adventure me' playlist on my iPod - tracks (mainly instrumentals, like James Horner's work) that just take my mind away from my physical space. It calms me down, daydreaming about other things and other places. Adventures I could be having in another world. I dunno, might sound weird and mental. But it's how I spend a lot of my time. Just dreaming, and thinking about other places. Letting my imagination inspire me.
Sigh...

I really wanna visit ya

Yea sometimes i do that too! But I don't walk I just sit outside and look out at the sky, or just get myself something to drink like milk or water and just sit in the kitchen and look outside through our big glass sliding door... or just like when I got home last night it was dark and when I was walking up to my house I stopped, looked up at the sky, then walked onto the grass on our lawn and just laid there. And thanks for the help, I haven't tried listening to music I should give that a try... I have speakers around my bed that are plugged into my laptop I should set up a playlist and give that a try... thanks for the tip!

And I really want you to visit as well or vise versa

Originally Posted by Fkeu'itan

Aww Stanley, big hugs man, I really hope you can get past this problem ma tsmukan. I had a stretch recently where I was exactly the same. Finally going to sleep at around 4, 5AM, sleeping for about 3 hours, waking up and repeating the whole process. Like you, my emotions at the time were very confused as well, they still are in a way, so I can understand completely where you stand on that ground too.

The things that help me in that situation is, like Autumn said, some relaxing music and a meditation session. Just getting away from this world and going to a completely different place (usually Pandora ) can help to no end. Sometimes if it's really bad, i'll go for a walk out into the woods nearby, just lay on a bench or on the grass if it's dry, look up at the stars and just think everything over. No distractions, just thoughts.

I really hope you can get some good sleep soon ma tsmukan.

Thanks ma tsmukan! Yea I was thinking about practicing guided meditation (CDs or something?) and what I still want to do is set some time aside to myself, just sit in the middle of my room with my DJ headphones and listen to the Avatar soundtrack all the way through, just meditate on it, have the movie playback in my mind and such... and my #1 place to escape to? Pandora

thanks again ma tsmukan

and yes Dreaming of Pandora and Human No More, I too have insomnia, I am a night owl, but I just find it wierd that I'm not tired the next morning and that night I'm still not tired... you know raves I attend and parties I sometimes DJ for sometimes go all night haha but I'm also not one to wake up early easily

thanks to everyone for the help and advice

[TheIknimaya]

Ahh, falling a sleep, my arch nemesis.

Many nights I have trouble falling asleep. Sometimes it can take 2-3 hours before I can fall asleep. Like I can get into bed at around 12 - 1 am and won't fall asleep until 2 or 3 am.

Last night I couldn't fall asleep if I wanted to, I had A LOT on my mind last night, I had a million thoughts racing through my mind. Thoughts ranging from simple things, to wanting my special someone, and other daily things.

I am terrible when it comes to falling asleep most of the time, the only times where I don't have trouble is when I am absolutely dead tired, which doesn't happen that often because I always end up staying awake too long which in turn makes me not feel as tired.