As a few of you may know I haven't gotten good sleep this weekend... I'd lay awake in bed till about 3:30am ish and drift off and wake up again, then finally wake up pretty early in the morning and stay awake. I don't know exactly what's keeping me up; sadness, loneliness (not from you guys and girls, like love relationship type), confusion, guilt... not really sure, I just have this feeling in my gut... It's almost 11pm here and I don't feel in the least bit tired... this has been a confusing weekend... just a bunch of time to think to myself, confused on my emotions... plus also my friends were over sometimes so it was different... like this morning when I took a shower I just sat there in the shower and let the water wash on top of me for like 15 minutes. and tonight I just sat outside on our spa house roof and stared up at the sky for like 10-15 minutes. I don't want this to sound really depressing or anything, I'm just confused on why I'm feeling like this... it could be because of my sleeplessness... but what's causing that? hopefully I get the sleep I need tonight, but like I said I don't feel tired.
Oh well we'll see what happens... sorry I know some of you don't care if I release my emotions, but I still feel guilty :/
also thank you toshowlove, immo, and mune for talking with me tonight