Random Thought and Chatter.

[ISV Venture Star]

I now have an airbrush, complete with compressor. This will be... useful.

[Advent]

Hopefully, my dad will be getting me a laptop within the next year.

[TheIknimaya]

Well today I went with my mom and sister to a mall that I don't usually go to. I figured why not, might as well go out.

So were walking down the mall, and we see this store selling these framed posters/drawings of all kinds (They aren't really 'posters' as in they aren't paper, they have a rough feel to them). We looked around in the store and there were some really nice ones, (they had all three Lord of The Rings movies, Transformers, Pirates of the Caribbean, Spiderman, Matrix, Terminator Salvation, KISS, Metallica, Megan Fox), I didn't really want any of those, but they had a rack of them outside of the store. So I was looking through them and moved one forward to see if there was anything interesting behind it, and guess what I saw:





I was like OMG we have to buy it. It was originally $125, and it was on sale for $50. Everything was on sale, and they only had one of everything in the store, and it was their last night there. They are shutting the store down. What luck eh?! I almost stayed home.

I also got these at a book store in the same mall:



I got the last one of the one on the right.

[Gunny]

Originally Posted by Sight Unseen

Climbing A 1786 Foot Tall Tower
Skip to 6:08. I think I found my dream job. Great view, open air, and electronics. And no, I'm not afraid of heights.

Thats crazy! I would do it though heights dont bother me either I wonder if they wear a parachute incase they fall they can glide to the ground like a base jump sorta thing?

[TheIknimaya]

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[Helicoradian]

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[Gunny]

RT: Im running low on money, I hope people start wanting their cars detailed soon or im gonna be out of business!

[Sight Unseen]

Edited per TheIknimaya's request. It's okay man, I've done the same too. I just try not to post when I'm in a rage.

[TheIknimaya]

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[Sight Unseen]

Originally Posted by theiknimaya

do want!

[Gunny]

I'm so pissed off, stressed like never before in my life! And just want to break down and cry to be quite honest! It seems like no matter how hard I try o can never succeed! My older sister who is only a year older than me makes the deans list at her college every semester at a college harder than mine mind you. Meanwhile I barely manage to scrape by.

I've told myself this is because I get lazy and put ny mind to other things. However, this semester I told myself I was going to be dedicated and prove to my parents that I'm not a bum. Only now after getting grades back from 4 of 5 classes I have only managed to pass one test. Other grades. Were 67, 64, and 51! Now without passing all of these with more than a C in some i risk my gpa dipping to low and being kicked from the college of business!

So now here i am feeling proven that I just don't have what it takes to cut it. After the results I just want to give up because the possibility of coming back is slim to none at all. But i can't do this because it wpuld be a giant. waste of my parents money. What's worse is to tell them how I'm doing and see the dissapointment in them. Not their fault they have given me above anf beyond the things I need i just cant do a thing with it.

I've known I kinda wanted to change majors before thos semester started but had no clue what i wantwd to do so decided against it. Now i feel that I for sure need a radical change yet still no idea as to what and feel that I will just fail at that also. I'm really at a point that I wonder if I should just give up and join like the military now or be a freaking hobo! Idk what im doing with my life but whatever I'm doing now isn't working and i can't take this stress and such anymore.

Idk why I'm typing this, I guess I just needed to go it out. I don't expect someone to have all the answers. Just wish I had someone to comfort my thoughts. This will end my rambling rant. If you actually read it all than you must be bored lol. Ugh my life Ftl

[Sight Unseen]

/me hugs Gunny.

Yes I read all of it. Ugh, academics. I hate school.

[Gunny]

Thanks

Just talked to my parents, honestly I can say that even though I could hear the disappointment in them from the grades I have received (I still feel compared to my sisters who are both much smarter than me even though they deny it) they were very understanding and I am blessed to have the parents that I do. They told me that obviously dropping a class is not the optimal decision since money gets wasted but it would benefit me to drop one and concentrate on the others than to get a bad grade and lower my gpa with the class by not dropping.

So I am planning on dropping one of my accounting classes. I feel bad because my dad was an accounting major and graduated in 3 years! Plus he was like a president and high up in the accounting part of the business school he attended and I think he wanted me to be like him. I just dont get it I guess :/ so while I knew I wanted to change my major and now know that I must change my major I just do not know as to what I want to change to. Part of me thinks management or marketing where Ive seen cool jobs like with world wide travel agencies though idk if thats what I really want to do.

Lately I have also thought about music, that it would be cool to get back into music like I used to be back in highschool and pursue it more. Though it makes me angry that being a jazz player that jazz is not a big form of music anymore and the only other thing that I could do with music is try to make it big as an artist for major labels. Cant teach I dont have patience or the drive. So really I dont know what I want to do. All I know is that now I really want to take these grades and throw them up into the A's on my next tests and try to prove that Im not a total moron to my parents. I think they really just want me to get a major and get out of college as quick as I can :/

This year has not gone like I want it to. Though it does feel that this will be the year that defines the rest of my life. This will decide what I do with my life, will I help others? Make music for people to hear and move to? Work a regular business job? Or hell even fly fighter jets or cargo planes in the military/commercial pilot?? Lord knows I have no idea remotely close to what I want to really do with my life. I just hope that I am able to stumble upon my purpose in life soon so that I can feel the motivation swell up inside me like it does when you get a great idea and get the drive to execute it to perfection!

[Human No More]

Oel ngati kameie... I'm stuck for what to do at university at the moment... I'm genuinely thinking I won't be able to pass this year, and I just lack the interest to really try... I guess it's how much I've changed

I keep entertaining the idea of a band in my head... but there are so many out there it's hard to be really successful from it, and I can't play still and am only an average vocalist (although could probably take the effort to learn)... what's hard is finding the other people with the same inspiration and style who want to do it...

I want to find something that will make me happy, not some job that overworks me just for money and makes me miserable...

[Gunny]

Same thing with me struggling this year and actually like what you said about just losing interest! I would love to be in a band though I gave up guitar and stuck with the saxophone lol! Ive played little jazz gigs here and there but its still exactly like what you said! With so many out there the chance of being unique enough and good enough to be noticed is very slim. Maybe I will be gutsy next semester if I find a good major and minor in musical performance since I dont think my parents would be happy about me switching completely to music XD