I'm Going To Be Away For Several Days.

[Sight Unseen]

Before I get started, I would like to say that I'm not really good with words, and most of the time I end up pissing myself off because I can't adequate convey my true feelings. So bear with me, and I apologize in advance if I start to sound preachy or hateful.

It's not like I can really find much time to spend here anyways, due to ayskxawng parents not understanding (but that's a different rant), but I'm going to be completely away from ToS from 7/12 to 7/18. Even though I get ten minutes to post on the forum daily, at best, it's just enough to keep me from going insane. (semi-seriously)

**rant warning**

Well, I'm going to a religion-based summer camp on Oklahoma. Well, I personally hate organized bigotry religion. This doesn't mean I don't believe in anything, but I personally believe that I don't have to go to a special building to practice my religion. Generally, from experience, organized religion such as church sort of facilitates a kind of mob mentality of superiority, like: "Heh. We're all better than everyone else because we come here and sing about god and hear some old white guy yell at us about our problems." It's sickening. And I have to do this for a week straight. *shiver*. Away from any kind of Internet.

And I don't have a choice either. My dad was like "You're going. And you're going to like it. Or else." And that's where I'm going to be, intellectual hell.

It's times like this that make me wonder why I haven't snapped, or just ultimately given up. Sometimes it's just really hard to live at all. And now, on top of normal life's problems, I have to give up ToS for a week (one of the few things that keep me going) and live through a week-long, church session. I fear for my mental stability.

P.S. I realized that, through this whole post, I never mentioned exactly what religion I practice. I am Baptist Protestant (or so they tell me).