Thank you Advent!

[Mika]

Well as of today I officially testify that 'Advent' is right .. "there is a difference between clinically insane and crazy!"

Fortunately this evening I shifted from being insane to crazy! I have finally 'woken up' and realized that I just can't take 'anything' and I mean anything seriously any more~ Doesn't matter if its politics, religion, work, debates, home life, love, hate, suffering, pain, or whatever .. its just not worth losing my sanity over any longer. Or more to the point I don't even care if I keep my sanity even that is worth laughing at .. it is a 'mad mad world' and it won't matter how serious we are, how hard we try, how much effort we put into something, how much we propound about the universe, how appalled we get at social and environmental conditions, how much love we pour out our heart and soul into the world, how many tears we cry forth in lamentation, how righteous we expound our beliefs, how; how; how; .. the insane list goes on .. that in the end none of it matters, no one really cares, and it is not going to make one ounce of difference. The world will keep turning and insanity will continue as long as there are human's being born into this world. We haven't figured it out in .. how many years has humanity been on this planet? .. we aren't ever really going to!

Around every corner will be someone or something that I can't control and thus having come to that realization, have decided to quit trying and just laugh .. laugh until if hurts and then laugh some more until it stops hurting, its so much better in the end, well at least I'm to busy laughing to care.

Today was kind of a rough day, starting during the night and just carried on till 'someone' whom doesn't even know me .. just killed my computer tonight with their virus .. all my work, all my files, all my pics (including of my granddaughter) now turned to dust and my heart right along with it!

But I couldn't .. I've grieved and been depressed enough in my life. I just can't go down that path no more, no matter how much it matters. I just need to let go .. and decided that if grieving, weeping, gnashing my teeth, and cursing don't help one bit .. then well wtf .. might as well start laughing .. and so far it seems to be working, at least I'm not in a puddle on the floor! not withstanding the other puddle that laughing to hard can generate

So heres to rothflmao .. anyone else care to join in?