Fill the void

[ZenitYerkes]

I attempted to write this thread several times, but never knew how to begin it.

So, first of all, Avatar was like a mirror to me. After watching the film for the first time, the following days I experienced something shocking. I want to believe that I Saw myself, you know; like I really knew what was going on my life, both wrong and right things. Since then I decided to follow the message it got and work, dedicate my life to become a better person and make this a better world for everyone. Hence why I posted the "Making Earth become a new Pandora" or began the Veritas project.

However, I felt bad: PAD. I knew deep inside that no matter how hard I worked, this wasn't ever going to be Pandora or anything close to it. That made me fell into a depressive mood that still lingers on.

As I looked around me, and just saw everything I didn't want. Even on myself. The mirror Avatar had become to me turned eventually something that hurt me. And it was then when I realized that my work was little and slow, and that it was likely for me to never finish it and see what I wanted to see.

The void appeared. Because I just saw in everything I had around me emptiness, isolation and nonsensical hate, and had nothing to where to hold on except of Pandora.

Until a few days ago, and thanks to the help from all the ToS community (specially rapunzel), I began to get over it.

But I still have the facts in front of me. I thought I should begin to work again for the change (although I'm still doubting). But how? How to fill the void Avatar leaves? How to look face to face to what surrounds us, and make something worthy with it?

How to make this world worth living?