Apology and Possible Farewell

[xcrunner08]

Let me start off by saying this is REALLY long, but admins/mods don’t worry I do not say anything bad in it. On the contrary, this is more of an apology and farewell. Over the past couple months, I have become a person I really don’t want to be. I have been an *******, a liar, and just mean at points. And thinking about it today, I just don’t like it.

I am just tired of everything at this point. I love the avatar community, but it’s starting to become too big a part of my life. The people are great, the forums are great, the movie is great, but there comes a point where I have to let some of the stuff go. This is that point for me.

I don’t know why I have taken this stuff seriously. Everyone is, for the most part, nice people. I think I have just gotten caught up in all this drama that I just lost sight of the fact that names on the internet are people too. As I said above, I just don’t like the person I am right now, or rather the person I am on the internet.

I try to be a nice guy, and I usually get along with everyone. My actions in the past weeks have caused people to think of me as a bad person, a dick, and I don’t like that at all. I don’t know if it’s too late but I apologize for what I have done.

Human No More: We have had our differences in the past and I shouldn’t have made the attack I did. I think you are a nice guy and care about the Avatar Community.

Zongtseng: When I attacked you in IRC, I had no clue who you were and jumped to conclusions. You have been a nice guy to me always and I apologize for attacking you.

Eltu: Thanks for being a defender of me on here. I probably never deserved it, but you always got me unbanned after I got in trouble. Thanks and sorry for causing problems.

I apologize to anyone else who my actions have caused problems for, but those were the specific people I thought about. I feel terrible for contributing to several members leaving the Avatar community forever, but I can’t change that now.

I will probably be taking an extended break from forums for the most part (except for one most likely), though I haven’t decided yet. I will try to still be on IRC but a lot of my time will be spent on Skype. If you want to add me, PM me or ask on IRC, I would just prefer not to post my name in this public of a place. I understand if most of you don’t want to talk to me, though I would like to remain in touch with people. Sorry if this is long and sentimental but I had a really reflective run today and wanted to get this out. This whole thing has just interfered with my life a little much and I want it to be over. As I said, sorry for the problems and I would like to remain in touch with a lot of you. Sincerely,

Xcrunner08

[Human No More]

...that was a really nice thing to say. Thank you

I know I've certainly done part in our disagreements too, but if you're willing to put them behind us, I am. Talk to you on IRC some time

[Cyan]

Feels soo responsible, it should have been me instead
Edit: I can read deleted messages, and still i dont care, you are a member here, and should be respected which i have not been to you.

[Spock]

That is nice of you. Just one thing, you shouldn't have gunned for Toruk Makto all those months, now he's gone.

[xcrunner08]

Haha the deleted message wasnt directed at you at all. But thanks. And sorry for everything I have said to you in the past CMQ

[xcrunner08]

Ok well what you do is your business, please don't hijack the topic.

[Woodsprite]

Well after all this I'm still hungry for info on the whole thing between you and HNM! Because I never understood the reasons.

[Fkeu'itan]

This was a very noble thing to do xcrunner08, i'm sure many people here appreciate it immensely, Including myself.

So thank you.

[TxonTirea]

Well done for apologizing, I forgive whatever you have done. It takes a real man to stand up and admit that he's in the wrong. So whatever you have done, consider it null and void. <33

[Petrucho]

including myself too Fkeu'itan , cool words xcrunner08 thanks

[ZenitYerkes]

I honestly have no idea of what's going around with you and Eltu, HNM or Zongsteng, but I do appreciate the courage you have needed to join to post this.

You seem a quite respectable person, a shame we didn't meet before.

[Gunny]

Much respect was gained through this post. It takes s strong man to admit when he has messed up. I am sad to see you leave, though wish you the best on whatever path you wish to follow!

[xcrunner08]

haha sorry i didnt clarify in my original post. Im not like perma leaving. Just not going to be posting as much. I will probably stay in IRC though I talk most through Skype. It's not a permanent leave fromt eh Avatar community, just not AS MUCH time spent. Thanks for your words, though, everyone.

[Cyan]

Originally Posted by avatarfan 2012

haha sorry i didnt clarify in my original post. Im not like perma leaving. Just not going to be posting as much. I will probably stay in IRC though I talk most through Skype. It's not a permanent leave fromt eh Avatar community, just not AS MUCH time spent. Thanks for your words, though, everyone.

It has been a pleasure, you may have done wrong, but you certainly have not making this thread, it has taken soo much guts to realise this and make a thread, under all the scrutiny of users, it could have been suicide, but we here accept everyone aslong as they admit and commit to change, please stay around most weeks, the good xcrunner seems like a gem of a guy

[zongtseng]

Well, I am very glad to read this. This is where everyone needs to get to, back to the spirit that Avatar placed in all of us. Internet squabbles are nothing next to the love and ideals that binds this community together. Families fight, but they always remember their bonds in the end. You will always be welcome here.